I was with my then-husband. We were walking onto the dance floor
at a goth club we frequented. When I saw Him, I was grateful
then-husband and I were already polyamorous. I noticed His eyes
first, the warmth, the kindness, the passion for living in them- I
still love gazing into my Master's eyes even these 13 years later.
Then my gaze slid down His regal nose to His mouth- instant contact
with every erotic fiber of my body. Those lips, and the way He
smiled. Then I broadened out to His hair. The rich brown, the long
curls- if I danced at all, and we had danced, I'm fairly unsure it
would have been indecent :D but then we were at a club. I imagined
burying my hands in that hair as He held me down and fucked me until
I was begging to come. Finally I noticed the trifecta of His clothes
(Renaissance garb), hands (large), and height (6'6")- I'd
managed a perfect guess on His height.
So there we have maybe the first 15 seconds after I saw my Master.
It didn't matter that then-husband was there; we tried to make a go
at poly triad, but ex was too immature and self-centered. It didn't
matter that Master's ex-girlfriend Molly was there; He thankfully
gave her the boot before I acted on my desire to beat the living shit
out of her for how she hurt Him. Eyes, mouth, hair, clothes, hands,
height- in roughly that order.
Now I thought of this for a few reason. My editor, especially in
"Gates of the Garden: Book Two," has been a stickler for
wanting more details, like being reminded of Vala's red hair or The
Queen's blue eyes. Then as I was writing "Week Long" for
Camp Nano in July, I got the chance to look at The Queen and his
stable through the eyes of five "hopefuls." I pondered at
times- would Miwa notice what Iona was wearing? What would Egil think
of the natural black mixed with unnatural, fire engine red bangs that
Raanan's currently wearing? Since "Week Long" is done in
first draft and "Gates" is with two beta readers for a
final look before publishing, I'm on to other work. My main fictional
focus is "Looking for Our Unicorn"- where the story unfolds
first through the eyes of "the unicorn" Arya as she
glimpses Bruce and Thora and hopes. I keep pondering, what are the
three of them seeing? Are they seeing the physical? I know, as a
queer woman in a male/female couple looking for our unicorn, that the
physical is likely to be just a small part for me, and isn't likely
to be given more than the 15 seconds I spent looking at my Master
before I knew I wanted to have sex with Him (then-husband was very
helpful by saying "My wife wants to have sex with you" lol)
and that I wanted Him to be my Master; somehow I knew He'd do a much
better job than Tom ever had and well as a Master, husband, and
parenting partner, He has.
Thanks for the insight into your first glimpse. It is amazing what we can tell in mere seconds, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteHugs,
fiona
you're welcome, fiona :) I was glad to write it. But yeah, it really was just that quick, the knowing. Of course, the rest of the story is sad at points, and shouldn't have taken as long as it did at points.
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