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Wednesday, November 26, 2014

#WIPiTuP Tabitha and Bina brainstorm poly

Sharing WIPs (works in progress) can be so very fun! On this lovely blog hop, enjoy a bunch of authors sharing excerpts of what they're working on- get ready to add some great books to your TBR, once the author publishes :) Although occasionally you may find an author sharing a published work. Give 'em a break- these may just be roughly edited- but please do leave a comment! We authors like to know we're going in a good direction.

There has been lots of jokes about story-ception in my household this Nano, with my nano novel about romance writers and containing their WIPs and published stories as well. If you read my blog both on Tuesday and Wednesday, you've gotten a few bits from one of Bina's story as well as Bina & Tabitha's first date. This is an upcoming scene that I've only gotten this far- the afternoon after their date, they agree to meet and brainstorm for a polyamory call. Their names shown in bold are showing their text comments.


Okay, we're working now. I can really shift gears. Bina Syntha: "That's good. Any thoughts on how we we want to arrange this? Like who starts?"

Tabitha Loving: "Shona [it might need explained why Tabitha's is using this Hindi endearment meaning gold], why don't you start? Better question: beyond who starts, do we want to approach this round robin style or write whole sections?"

Oh, she called me Shona! She's been reading. I am totally falling in love! Bina Syntha: "Wanna try brainstorming and then we'll round robin in chat? I could collect it into a document as we go."

Tabitha Loving: "I like that idea! So do we want to write a triad? A quad? A quint?"

Bina created another word processor document, saved it as "poly-Bina and Tabitha," and glanced at her nearly empty box of candies. "Time to buy more," she muttered. She placed her fingers on the home row and pondered her answer.

Bina Syntha: "I like the triad idea, especially since you have experience with it with your Ara's."

Tabitha Loving: "A triad works. I'd like to propose two cis women and a trans and/or genderqueer person."

Bina Syntha: "That sounds good. I think we need to consider names and where they live besides."

Tabitha Loving: "How about Tisha and Victory for our girls? Then wait on the non-binary character until they let one of us know? For location, I suggest the Midwest so it's still familiar to us, but placed in a large city, like maybe Ferndale, Michigan? Des Moines? Milwaukee?

Bina Syntha: "Actually I'd suggest Ann Arbor, Michigan because it seems they have a super active polyamory support group there. I like the idea of our triad living somewhere they'd be comfortable."

Tabitha Loving: "Good point and I agree. I think there's going to be a bunch of they live in a totally backward place stories. We will have something different and something that forces creativity as I'm not sure either of us have either lived somewhere we truly felt comfortable."

Bina swallowed hard at the truth of Tabitha's statement.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

#Taboo2sday Porn or non-porn?

Take a risk and try something a little taboo with me? D I promise you'll find delights and scares depending on how adventurous you are

I've shared a few things from my Nano-novel this month so far ("Tabitha and Bina in Love": Two erotic romance authors meet online, fall in love, and engage in a long distance relationship.) The layers of possible taboo in this story are quite a few- given not only am I writing Tabitha and Bina's romance (a white woman and an Indian woman), but I'm also writing their WIPs and published books (including a lesbian polytriad, a genderqueer story, and an erotica looking at ableism, just to name a few). But you shouldn't have sex on a first date, even if you're an erotic fiction writer :D And what to Bina and Tabitha get talking about? The snippet starts with Bina speaking- remember that she lives way up north in Wisconsin.


I looked up the statistics of this city and I wonder why I stay. I mean, if I could leave, but I'm not even sure it's a could. What's the last movie you enjoyed?"

Tabitha smiled, feeling her eyelids flutter with her emotional disturbance at the quick subject change. "Porn or non-porn?"

"Do you enjoy full porn movies, not just snippets on line?" Bina took a long drink, as if trying to force Tabitha to answer.

"I'm just being silly. So the last movie was Fried Green Tomatoes because it was playing on a cable channel. As for porn, I'm a collector of the different.

Sunday, November 23, 2014

The NaNoWriMo update rather late in coming....

Nope, not coming as in an orgasm :D But I'm home now and hoping to be feeling physically better soon so that my Master and/or I can be coming in that sexual sense. At the very least for some of my characters to get to :D. My extended family had "early Thanksgiving" yesterday because one of my cousin's from Indiana came in. As usual for my mother, she made it as nasty as she could. But I'm glad to be home now. Yesterday was a zero word count day sadly; I'm hoping for better tomorrow. I'm still quite behind- 27218 words. Once my health is better- the stress of my mother and my period starting Friday- I plan on listening to a special message on the NaNaWriMo Youtube channel from creator Chris Baty, then there's the virtual write-in on Wednesday. Plus also on a good health day, I want to do Baty's "6000 word jetpack day" from his "No plot!? No problem!" Frustratingly, it's not the story that's hard but my overall depression and worry, then my mother being a bitch.

I'm sharing a bit from Bina and Tabitha's cyber date... a few moments when they get quite serious...

 "I'm sorry, I know it's probably a stupid, racist thought, but I imagine it must be nice not to show it when you're blushing."

Bina laughed. "Maybe not particularly educated, but a question, how many people of color do you know closely?"

"Probably some online, but not many particularly close. While it might be unfair of me, I assume many of the spanking authors are white because race is so hardly mentioned. Even sometimes the authors on the GLBT hop don't seem to be the most thoughtful and inclusive, if you know what I mean. Like I admit I was anxious for you to see how people would react to the first story you shared. Even writing erotic fiction focused on woman, I sometimes worry. Am I too different?"

"Maybe we're just putting our isolation into how we read our interactions on hops? It's my sense that we are among the few who can't claim white, straight, married, and middle class identities in that entirety." Bina took a sip of her drink. "I'm not even sure that you experience your whiteness in the way that many of the other hoppers do." She watched Tabitha take another bite of her food.

"Although if you recall on the hop last week, two men talked about being African American and transgender."

Tabitha slowed her food and paused another moment before saying, "That's right! I was so excited to see their posts. I always worry about exoticizing people of color, well that and tokenizing." She lowered her gaze to Bina's neck. "Like is it bad that I'm attracted to the color of your skin?"

"Oh sweet, don't you think like that.

Friday, November 21, 2014

Tommy, Simon, & Vala, sex and paddling, and an update

So I plan to have a Nano Update on Sunday, but I'm not participating in Saturday Spankings as I'm going to be too busy with traveling to my parents' house 2.5 hour away and then home, with an extended family Thanksgiving in the middle of that time. I wouldn't feel fair to participate in SatSpanks with no chance to read.

As a treat, I'm going to an impromptu bit of Vala watching Simon and Tommy fuck before she ends up joining in. Afterward you'll see the blurb and buy links for "Out of the Night: Book One" of my Vala's Story serial, where Vala comes home with The Queen and trades her birth name of Mearr for the beautiful Vala and joins his family.


Tommy whimpered at Simon's lips moving over his chest. "Love," he gasped as the kisses moved lower.

"You can't be that desperate yet," Simon taunted.

"I'm always desperate when both you and The Queen deny me," Tommy whined.

"But it's so fun to watch you suffer and wait for permission to come. Did you decide it would be bad to see if Vala would enjoy fucking you... just in case we ended up saying you couldn't come?"

Vala perked up at the mention of her.

"I... um..." Tommy writhed against the bed in response to Simon's caressing his inner thighs. "Please!"

Simon grabbed Tommy's ankles and pulled him up into diaper position. "Vala, I know you're only pretending to read. Please bring me that paddle laying on the coffee table by you."

"Yes, Simon." Vala trembled as she picked up the light plastic paddle, its black surface reflecting the candle light. She chewed on her bottom lip as she crossed the living space to The Queen's bed.

Simon smirked at Vala. "Will it make it easier for you when The Queen decides he's ready to collar you and you're a submissive responding to my order?"

"I don't know." Vala locked her legs when Simon brought the paddle down hard on Tommy's asscheeks, the skin pulled tight in his current position.

"Yes, thanks," Tommy moaned before Simon gifted him with the next smack. "Harder, please."

"Wouldn't you like to tease him while I paddle him? His poor cock not being given any attention?" Simon included his head toward Tommy's rapidly coloring skin.

Vala crawled on the bed on the other side of Tommy from where Simon knelt. She hazarded a glance at his face.

"Please touch me," Tommy begged.

Vala looked to Simon just in time to see him start with rapid blows, the paddle moving up and down Tommy's shaking body from the top of his asscheeks to his thighs. She took a hold of the cock and started stroking.

"Yes!" Tommy cried out.

"No coming yet, boy," Simon warned. "Vala, what would Tommy find if he put his fingers between your legs?"

"That watching you enjoy him has me really turned on."

Simon grinned. "Tommy, see if Vala is right."

And with that, I stop at my most teasing point and invite you to enjoy "Out of the Night: Book One" of my Vala's Story serial where you'll get to enjoy more sex, more BDSM, and more romance. Just not hetero-normative or mono-normative or greeting card- that's not my point of view :D.

"Out of the Night: Book One" of Vala's Story blurb:
Restless and world-weary, Mearr isn't about to admit she needs anyone's help, even this gorgeous man who has taken her into his home. Well one of his homes and part of this huge family she's heard about but not met all of. She's young, looks young, and knows it but at least she's legal now so she can pick a new name to go with her new life...

The Queen knows he wants Mearr bad, ever since the first time he saw her in the window of the coffeehouse. He has his plan, but even a Dominant's plans don't always survive the unpredictability of the future. He struggles to figure out this temperamental woman he's brought home, how best to help her. Then he takes her to his mansion...

They wait patiently for The Queen to bring Mearr home. Well to the home they've been redecorating for Him and for the hopes that she'll become part of their family and be trained to please Him. Simon and Tommy have seen her, of course, being The Queen's right and left hands; they say she'll be a perfect addition...

Please come along with Joelle on this journey, shared with the readers in serial fashion. A multitude of "Happily-ever-afters" are waiting with the completion of book 9.

Author's Note: This novel is meant for open-minded adults. Activities described include a wide range of BDSM and sexual activities, some of which are male/male, male/female, consensual slavery, oral/anal/vaginal intercourse, bondage. The story also covers some sensitive topics in characters' backstories, such as drug abuse.

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Thursday, November 20, 2014

#SRR Ownership is the key for me, in writing & fiction, not humiliation

I realized this morning,  looking at the title, that I should add "in real life too"- since I do so much writing of what happens in my life, I forgot to put that in my title :D.

I'm glad to Spanking Romance Reviews for sponsoring this discussion; it feels weird to have no one to thank for hosting though as I'm the one hosting this month. Never expected that to happen :D So for this different (for me) SRR, I'm going to share the intro and my questions- I'm silly proud of them, you see.

Ownership versus Humiliation. The focus differs for many people- as shown in the conversations around "Anal Punishment- Hot? or Not?" last month- of whether any given activity is engaged in as an act of ownership or humiliation. While Aubrey Cara, who commented that I'd hit on a possible topic, divided her thoughts into BDSM writers and DD/spanking writers, I think the divisions aren't quite that neat or distinct.

* How do you understand the difference between an ownership- or a humiliation-focus in writing and/or in real life?
* If you live some level of DD, BDSM, include spanking in your relationship- do your practices focus more on ownership or humiliation?
* When you're reading spanking fiction, do you have a preference for either of these focuses? Or does it even matter to you?
* And of course, feel free to add your own comments and questions- after all, I come to this conversation as a reader of DD/spanking fiction, but an author of BDSM fiction.

The first thing I want to say, before getting into the questions, is that I don't think it has to be a "versus" between ownership and humiliation, but I think that happens in spanking fiction (more so than IRL, whether a relationship has a BDSM, a DD, or spanking focus). Sadly I can't think of any specific books where this plays out; I can only think of my own writing, where often it seems my ownership emphasis makes my writing feel differently than many of my friends' books and snippets that I read. Interestingly as I work on my Nanowrimo novel for the year, my one main character who is a "spanking author," I find in her WIP that I'm using a bunch of humiliating language- "naughty girl" and "panties" and "at your ankles." It feels weird, I must say. Somehow I think that if I was actually writing out her novels, I'd find the percentage of "humiliating language" to be quite low. However a good portion of her writing that I'm doing is "for blog hop" type posts.

Now I see that I've started answering my first question. To me, it is a lot about word choice, especially IRL. With my Master and I, we just don't use much humiliation language or activity; heck, I'd beg Him to engage in enema domination if enemas weren't a hard limit for Him. However- and this is part of where Aubrey suggested this is as a topic- in my fantasies, enemas aren't about humiliation, but ownership. Like with the link I shared with Katherine Deane when I was suggesting this topic, I see care and ownership. In the short, The Queen gives Abrecan an enema to show how he cares for Abrecan as his slave. Later in Vala's Story, there's a moment around enemas and golden showers that The Queen says to Vala, there is no part of you that I cannot possess because I own you. Gives me delicious shivers, even though I'm not entirely sure that's his word choice, but I'm not going into Vala's Story during Nanowrimo to look :D.

When it comes to humiliation IRL, I've already explained that my Master and I don't use it. Our focus is "Joelle is my slave so I can fuck her whenever." Although for Shaman, if I'm really not into sex or BDSM, it quickly becomes a "yeah, I can go watch some porn instead." I need to go a step further here though with some thoughts of mine that I haven't bothered Shaman with- the poor Man, I spend way more time pondering things than probably necessary. For me, I see too much humiliation (especially in fiction) as being used as a justification for enjoying sexuality. As a sex-positive person I struggle to accept that logic as being a good thing. One day Shaman was joking about "you want punishment" and I corrected Him, saying, "No, Master, I don't want punishment, I want You to spank me because it feels good to me." No judgment meant for people who enjoy a humiliation or a punishment dynamic, but considering mainstream sexuality in the US, I find accepting that I want sex or BDSM activity is more transgressive, positive. All that said, I don't think erotic humiliation is necessarily bad- just not something I'm into.

In reading, too much use of humiliation will often prevent me from reading a snippet or book. The crazy thing- to me at least- is that corner time in spanking fiction too often comes off (in word choice of the author) as "supposed to be humiliating" and that gets a squick for me. Although I have found Rayanna Jamison's use of corner time in her polygamy spanking series "Love Multiplied" as something I enjoy; I can't really say why her writing of corner time doesn't squick me.

This is a separate topic (and I know SRR has approached it before) but the whole thing of fantasy/reality in erotic fiction. I know for me, I usually prefer more reality especially when the reality MATCHES mine- being a queer, kinky, poly woman, I see all too little of myself in erotic romance and the focus of so many stories on humiliation only seems to make it feel even less representative to me.

So I'm always on the hunt for books that are more about ownership than humiliation, especially in DD stories, where I find the accepted ownership delicious. I also give this challenge to my authors friends- more male/male, female/female, genderqueer characters mixed in couples and trios in spanking/DD fiction. and with that, I bow out to go get a "good girl" spanking from my Master and horrify Him with my asking :D.

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

#WIPiTuP What does Tabitha's drunken message get her from Bina?

Sharing WIPs (works in progress) can be so very fun! On this lovely blog hop, enjoy a bunch of authors sharing excerpts of what they're working on- get ready to add some great books to your TBR, once the author publishes :) Although occasionally you may find an author sharing a published work. Give 'em a break- these may just be roughly edited- but please do leave a comment! We authors like to know we're going in a good direction.

So before anyone complains (I'm watching you, Melody Parks :D ) that I didn't share any of Yuri and Sum having sex, go read the snippet I shared for Taboo Tuesday. However this week I decided I wanted to share not from one of Tabitha or Bina's WIPs, but from their own romance. Tabitha decides to go to a straight bar and has a bad time. I'm starting from the message (UPDATE, UPDATE, I got it wrong the first time, but now it's correct :D) Tabitha sent Bina on Facebook (at least I'm saying Facebook rather than "social media" for ease as I'm writing, but I'm not sure what a publisher will think of that.) I was so glad to write this scene. I'm getting to the point of "why aren't they together yet?" and I found I was using some timetable of "how fast relationships go" that really have no baring on the story I'm writing :D


Apologizing at the beginning of this for my drunken message, but before I can talk myself out of this, I'm writing. Tonight I chose to go to a straight bar rather than be lonely, rather than spending the time online with a writing friend, maybe you? I find I like you a lot. Look at your profile pic. Wonder if it's really you. Wonder if you might be interested in someone, in me. I was sitting at the bar drinking my appletini- I rarely drink- wondering if you'd consider a LDR and then I was feeling all sappy. But I realized, even if it's a LDR, I'd rather be with you than sleep with some random person from the bar.

Tabitha logged off the site and hurried to her bed before she could write anything worse. Without bothering to undress, she crawled under her cream colored comforter and passed out.

Head pounding, Tabitha pushed her face into her pillow and prayed to go back to sleep. After a fruitless moment of such thought, she stumbled out of her bed and to her kitchen. She tossed a pod into her coffeemaker, loaded it with water, and pushed the start button. While the coffee brewed, she grabbed a glass, filled it with cold water, and grabbed an aspirin.

She moved to her table to take the painkiller and drink her water. She glanced at Lisa, who was curled up in her cat bed.

"So I was drunk enough that you avoided me last night?"

Lisa [her cat] continued cleaning her front paws, taking the moment to pull them over her head.
"And we're ignoring me today." Tabitha slapped her hand over her mouth. "Goddess, I sent Bina that crazy message! Why couldn't I have adopted a big dog that would have tripped me on the way to my office?"

Lisa hissed at Tabitha and ran out of the room.

Tabitha started to laugh, although her humor quickly fled when the noise increased the ache inside her head. She stumbled toward her counter. Bread toasting. Butter out. She grabbed a cup for her coffee. Without a sense of time, she fed herself the buttered toast and fixed her coffee. Clutching her mug in both hands, she made her way to her office. She placed the cola on another coaster before easing her coffee onto the closer one.

A swirl of cat fur announced Lisa settling into her bed in Tabitha's office.

Tabitha carefully leaned over to pet Lisa's head.

"At least I didn't send Bina any embarrassing pictures." She loaded her blog and then opened another tab for Facebook. She logged in. She whipped her suddenly sweaty palms across her jeans. "Get it together, this isn't high school," she scolded herself. She dragged her teeth over her bottom lip to see the glowing red number over her messages. With shaking fingers, she clicked as she pondered Bina's response.


Now I admit to being a tease here by not including Bina's response... but I'm writing an erotic romance with an HEA here! :D What do you think Bina's response is?

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

#Taboo2sday Her cock in their hole #anal #genderqueer

Take a risk and try something a little taboo with me? D I promise you'll find delights and scares depending on how adventurous you are

I shared the first part of Sum and Yuri meeting (this is a short story from one of the erotic romance authors in my Nano-novel) for WIP it up Wednesday last week. For this Taboo Tuesday, I wanted to share a snippet of the sex between Yuri and Sum.

Sum had a bad Thanksgiving, having chosen it as the time to come out about being genderqueer to their parents and finding themselves disowned. Yuri, from an accepting family, is trying to make the overnight delay thanks to airplane issues better for Sum.


"While you were getting the condom, I lubed my ass for you." Sum grinned. "Your lovely cock should slide right into me."

Yuri straddled Sum's thighs. She took her cock in her right hand, the lube from the condom's package making her hand glide up and down. She glanced at their hole and moaned at the glimmering moisture. Before common sense could leave her, she guided the tip into Sum's begging hole.

"Yes," Sum hissed as the penetration slowly continued.